Today I saw a movie that really gave me a different perspective on life. It was entitled "The Secret" and it told me that the law of attraction is what controls my life. So basically what I'm thinking about will attract itself to me in some way or another. This made perfect sense to me and I changed the way I think. Instead of worrying about debt and other stresses, bringing me more of the stressful things, I think about the solution and I imagine myself arriving at that solution and I swear to God it works. I imagined that instead of high car insurance and not being able to pay for it, I imagined myself paying it and telling myself that I can do it, then I checked my PO box and there was a letter from my car insurance company, and when I read it, despite my speeding ticket, my car insurance rate went down for the next six months. How unbelievably weird is that? So I am changing myself and being more positive and believing in myself and I know everything will be just fine. There is nothing like an epiphany on a Wednesday afternoon. I love it.

Class is over for the weekend no more til wednesday, but plenty of homework to occupy my time. I'm prob the only one at this whole university not going home, hooray, i guess...

-Relax
-lunch with betsy
-quality time with the prettygirl
-hope to see her parents tonight I want to chill with J-Z.(John Zelen, dur.)

I hate expository writing, worst class of my life. College papers can kiss my ass, the bastards! I really want to do something fun. boooooorrrrrreeeeedddd.

lameass.

Wow.

I'll just start with Wow.

I'll say that since my last post that seems so long ago Jesus helped me write it, alot has happened. I can honestly say that I am a man. I am now 18 years old and in college, remember last post when I said Appalachian caught my eye? Well, I am here and happier than ever because I even got the privilege of sharing my college experience with that betsygirl.

Back in November of '06 I was kicked out of my house and I moved in with my best friend/brother Danny Hood. The Hoods have been so good to me that I can never repay them for all they have done. I got in a big fight with my dad but all has smoothed over and we are friends now and he treats me like a man, not his kid anymore. I think it is because I showed him that I can take care of myself and I don't need him anymore. I actually have my dad's respect and even though I hated him for so long it is actually kind of relieving and I smile whenever I think about it.

My pretty girl of almost two years is still by my side. She is a strong woman to put up with me. How do you do it? Even I get sick of myself sometimes, you are amazing, I know you are going to read this and I want you to know exactly how I feel. I love you more than anything that I have ever known. I would do ANYTHING for you no matter what no matter where or the given circumstances. Your happiness is something I treasure and your smile is to me what air is to my lungs. Your presence is brighter than the sun and you ALWAYS bring a smile to my face and when I look at you I feel as if I could do anything, you make me feel like a man and I never want to loose you because without you I will surely parish. You are my girlfriend, my best friend, and the only person I have ever felt this close to in my life. I like you, please keep me around.

Who likes the Avett Brothers? ummm oh yeah I DO!!!! Those guys are brilliant and I would give anything to meet them again and spend a little more time with them and talk to them about their music and let them know how much they inspire me. Scott Avett makes the banjo the coolest instrument ever.

Also, who likes Rufus Wainwright? ummmmmm shit yeah I do. haha. I took the prettygirl to see him in Atlanta and he put on a sweet show, he just has a way about him. The man is cool as shit, he has a presence like no other, its weird, I left going " my god did I just enjoy that?" and the look on betsy's face that night was enough to make me explode into a million pieces, she looked so happy with that big beautiful smile shining bright.

So I lucked out with no class on Tuesdays and Thursdays, hooray for me!!

My life is beginning now and I know it, goodbye childhood, it's been fun and I'll miss you. Welcome adulthood, this is going to be interesting.

I miss my friends.
I miss my family.
I miss Betsy's family.
I miss the Hood's.
I miss Indian Trail.
I miss my old life.
I miss driving my Jeep late at night in the country.
I miss 3am Wal-mart trips with Ese.
I actually miss High School.
I miss the man.(David thats you.)
Almost Heroes R.I.P.

I love my new life though.

You taste of potato chips in the morning. -Rufus Wainwright

How can he write a lyric about potato chips? Im telling you the guy has a presence.

Goodnight.

Sam.

I'll start out by saying im sorry. Its been almost a year since i posted in this thing. I'm a bad livejournal subscriber.

Guess What? I am STILL with Betsy Zelen! Can you believe it? It seems like only yesterday she was letting me borrow colored pencils and putting art on my head, what an amazing year. You know that movie The Notebook that girls love to watch and diddle themselves to b/c its like the perfect love story, well fuck that they need to film my relationship, that is truly, as Weezer would put it, a Perfect Situation. Betsy = Love of my Life, and I really mean that, I don't type bullshit. Relationships are collapsing all around us and we seem to be withstanding the hurricane. I just read the few entries i posted about a year ago and all the things i said about Betsy still stand and are even more powerful than that time, I love you baby, forever, and ever.

Seems Appalachian State has caught my eye college wise, and guess what, Betsy likes it too. If we go to college together, I will.... I don't even know how i'll react b/c that would be a level of happiness that i have never felt before and w/ her there has been alot of happiness. I have discovered a new outlook on my life aside from a year ago. I think I have changed for the better. I cut all my hair off, and I feel that I have actually grown up and am on the brink of becoming the man that I will be for the rest of my life.

I went to the fucking Panthers football game today and holy shit that was alot of fucking fun! I was into that shit too, talking shit to the opposing teams fans and stuff. Also in the entertainment area, I get to see Clapton on the 17th, thanks Dad.

Five hours from now I'll be at Betsy's, my second home, those people are a gift from god to me. I love them all just as much if not more than my own family, Thank you Zelen family, you guys rock, and you rock hard.

Check me out with my longass entry. I want Starbucks, that girl has me addicted to shit that I normally wouldn't be, but haha god I love her so much that it actually hurts me sometimes, but in a good way though. All my stuff on here is Betsy, Betsy, Betsy. Betsy this and Betsy that but you know what I have two halves of a brain and 1 1/2 of those are filled with her and her smile and her laughs and her fucking sheer beauty that makes me smile even if I didn't have a mouth to smile with. I love her more than the air keeping me alive b/c air doesn't keep me alive anymore, she does.

"Hello, Here I am, and here we go Life's waiting to begin."
Thats my motto from now on. AvA kicks ass.

Betsy is my love.
And even a year later, David is still the man.

Goodnight Moon.

Sam.

Man, today was ok. Dan chilled at my house and we played Madden 06 and he killed me even after all the shit-talking I did about how I was going to annihilate him in Madden.

Betsy is acting strange lately I think, I hope its nothing I have done or said. She just got off the computer without saying Bye or telling me she loved me and she always does both, strange. I'm excited to see her tommorrow even though she doesn't seem as thrilled to see me, I hope I'm not bugging her.

Anyway, I hope things are good, I really relly hope things are good.

I love her, Betsy that is.

Sam.

I had a good day today. I got to see Betsy, she made my day freakin awesome. When she took me up to her room and when she opened her door she had like 120 balloons blown up for me for my birthday. I love her so much, I can't say it enough and there aren't words strong enough to express the way I feel towards her. She also got me Wedding Crashers on DVD, I love that movie. Thank you Betsy for an amazing day.

Yesterday I had to go look for a job, laaaame. Afterwards I went to David's and hungout there. He is one of my all time bestfriends, the kind of friends that i will hang out with when i am 50. Clayton came over to David's and we went to the Chinese Buffet and laughed for like 30mins nonstop when this little girl behind me said, " I just want some Ice Cream." and the mom was like "WELL SHUTUP THEN!!!!!!!!!!!" she said that so loud we just died. Then we went home and at like 9 Clayton called and was like "Let's go Bowling" So we did and I won the game until the last frma when David somehow beat me but after all he IS The Man.

Yay for a good weekend, boo for school.

Betsy I love.
David is The man.

Hello,

Today was um, not bad but I just felt stressed over nothing and completely useless all day. There was no reason to act/feel this way but I did. I hung out with Dan today, we hit golfballs with baseball bats and just chilled after school. Saturday is the day to go get me a job! Dammit, my life is ending and I am helpless, why can't I be a kid forever? I played some guitar today and watched my super cool new Incubus: Alive at The Red Rocks DVD, and tommorrow is my day to see Betsy! I am so excited and I can't wait, I got screwed over earlier this week and I couldn't see her but this time I get to, knock on wood.<---- haha wtf? I feel like 80 now that I have said knock on wood, laaaame. Oh and I am putting Morose as my modd because I don't know what the hell that is.

Until we meet again,

I slang in my white tee.

Dude, I have seriously been neglecting this thing, its kinda sad. Ehh I figured I'll do it when the new year comes around and its the time of the new year, and I am actually a little. I am gunna start updating each day, and if not then every other day. I love music. Man that was random but very necessary. I love Betsy, alot. Hopefully she reads this stuff so she knows that although I do express it in other ways, I hope she sees that if not then I am sorry, I'll try harder. I had Chinese today and it was good, sushi is better than i remember, everything seems to be going ok except for the fact that I am separated from all my friends now that I am back at Piedmont. I get so depressed thinking about how it used to be a few months ago to how it is now. I have to leave you now, but I WILL return.

I love Betsy.
David is the man.
But most important, I love Betsy.

Samuel.

Well today is Thursday, and it was just another day for me. Boring ass school and coming home to my boring life with out my love or any of my freinds at The Ridge. This weekend may turn into something, I get to see the person that makes me want to keep waking up to these very MEH days tommorrow. God, what would I do without Betsy? She is my everything, I can't think a thought in my head that doesn't include her in it and I love that so much.

Today is December 1st. Yay.(sarcasm)I used to love Christmas but now that I am getting older it is not bién.(check out the awesome accent mark over the E, bet you wish you were that cool.) I may be moving as far away as South Carolina in the upcoming year and I turn 17 in about a month so there isn't shit I can do about it. I need a break. I wnat to see This Waking Moment and Cambridge on Dec. 16th, and yes Justin I WILL be there. We have a show next month, looking forward to that, hell I am looking forward to any activity out of my band, we seem to be Dieing Sound Asleep very coincidently and it saddens me. I love Coheed and Cambria, they own all and I wish I could play guitar like Claudio and Travis. I just remembered that I am obsessed with Betsy Zelen, she is like a drug that I can't quit and do not aspire to, I love my situation with her and I hope she feels the same.

Oh yeah and by the way, I hope I'm Forgiven For Thug Living When I die.